Biggest Loser

So very much has happened since my last post in May. After my last post about not being focused and not being able to get my booty into a gym, I continued on that path for a while. In late June, I had surgery that just put me more off track. Thankfully a co-worker of mine had the idea to start a "Biggest Loser" competition within our office. I signed right up! Apparently, the thought of putting my money where my mouth is, was just the motivation I have been needing. I'm hitting the gym just about every day now and eating a million times better. The competition started in the beginning of August and goes to December 13th. There was a $25 buy in, 13 people participating and who ever has the biggest total percent of weigh lost, wins all the money! Of course, I am doing a whole bunch of smack talk with the other participants, but in reality, I wish them all luck working towards a healthier future.

I am just glad to be focused again. I have a pretty intense fall semester ahead of me and I am going to need my workouts as an outlet for stress. Hopefully, I'll be better at updating this blog so I can give updates about the competition.

Completely off the wagon...

I had been doing so well....had being the key word. I was working out upwards of 5 to 6 days a week, eating healthy and losing weight. But the first week of April, my mom had surgery and I was staying with her. I hadn't been going to the gym that week because of how far she lives from my gym. I kept telling myself "it's ok that I'm not going this week....I'll go back next week when I am home". Yea, that never happened. I almost completely stopped going to the gym, starting eating really crappy because I was so stressed out from the end of my semester from Hell....and then I started gaining some of the weight back. I was down 20.5 lbs. I had gained back 8 lbs, but now I am starting to get focused again and started to lose a little bit of weight again. Currently, I am still down 17 lbs overall. I just need to gain control over it all again. I did make it to the gym once this last week, so there's a start. My motivation has just up and left, basically. But I'll find it again.

Stress eating in reverse?

Stress eating. I used to do a lot of it. I'd get upset, frustrated and angry, so I'd munch down on some not-so-good for me foods. But now, trying to focus on getting back to healthy, I am finding that I am having the opposite problem when I get stressed out....I stop eating. WTF? I was expecting to lose about 1 lb this week....I am down 3 lbs instead. It was an empty victory. I know it was because I had a terribly stressful week between work, school and some family stuff. I also had a lot of trouble dragging my butt to the gym at 4:30 in the morning. Which, I noticed, even after a few days of not going to the gym, I felt gross all over. I am hoping next week will be better. A lot of family worry/stress will be lifted once Monday is over and then just need to make it until the end of April and the semester from Hell will officially be over. I might actually be able to breath again and get back to a normal social life.

Overall, I am now down 14 lbs total. I am really starting to feel the difference on my body. Especially when I wear some of my work pants - I was called "droopy drawers" at work yesterday. Haha!

Week Five

I am officially down a total of 11 lbs now!!! It's a great feeling! It's nice to know, regardless of the stressful things that are going on in my life, there is something that I can actual take control of - my health and well being! With those taken care of, I am so much better at catching all of the curve balls life has been throwing my way lately. I think that if I was not in control of my health, like I was five weeks ago, I would have had a true break down. I sometimes wonder how I take on all that I do. I lay in bed at night, letting my mind run through the current day's events and laugh a little thinking "is this really my life?" But the next morning, while pushing myself on the bike, I clear my mind and don't allow myself any thoughts other than what I am doing right then. The feel of my muscles tightening in my thighs with each rotation of the pedals. The smells around me. The sound of music in my ears and the familiar feeling of sweat trickling down my face and neck. It's the perfect way to start each day with a clean slate, not a biased slate from the previous day.

Fourth Week

Holy crap! I can't believe I have been doing weight watchers and going to the gym for four weeks already!!! I had my weigh in this morning and am down another 2 lbs!!! Total of 9.5lbs!!! I am definitely noticing a difference in my overall size though....kind of wishing that I had measured myself in the beginning because I know I have lost in that aspect. Maybe this weekend I'll take measurements and just go from there.

I am so proud of myself! I have no idea how I am making all of this happen though! Working full time, going to school physically three nights a week and heading to the gym at 4:30AM......it's a mad house!!!

Three weeks down, only about eight million more to go!

At the end of my third week, I am down another 1.5 lbs! Making a total of 7.5 lbs off! I am working my ass off, literally. Eating right and working out daily, making the difference. I am sleeping better and am slightly less stressed, even though there is still work, school and family medical problems. At least when I am working out regularly, I feel like I can manage my stress with that type of outlet. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks, haha!I have been noticing lately though, I find myself wishing that I could skip forward about two months. That way, I would be down at least 20 lbs and be much more physically fit. It's really starting to frustrate me that I'm thinking this way. It's so not fair to myself. I need to snap myself back to reality and realize that I actually have to work towards that.

I am a work in progress. I just need to keep telling myself that over and over again because of my feelings of wanting instant gratification. Regardless of the thoughts I occasionally have, I am going to continue the way I am! Eating right, working out and staying positive - about everything.

Still trucking...

I am about to start week three of my new lifestyle. Things are still going really well! I am down another 3 pounds this week, making a total of 6lbs! I am still truckin it to the gym just about everyday and still loving that! Things are moving along. It's quite amazing what you can do when you put your mind to it! But, ultimately, I think it came down to the fact that I didn't feel healthy, body and mind. To ensure that I will continue to live as long as I possibly can, I knew that I needed to have an intervention with myself. My gym schedule has been off the last few days. Ended up spending almost the entire night at the hospital Thursday night because a family member was there. And now, with it being Sunday, I haven't been back since Thursday morning. My sleep was completely knocked off track. It's a strange feeling. My body was actually getting used to working out, I was getting up before my alarm would sound at 4:30AM...and now, I feel gross not working out. Even after three days. Which, I guess that is a good sign, right?

But today, for some reason, I feel like I am can't get enough to eat. Every time I turn around, I am heading back to the fridge. It would probably be in my best interest to just pop in a movie and lay down. Get my mind focused on something else so I stop eating and end up going over the limit!! So we'll see how it goes!