Friday, March 26, 2010

Stress eating in reverse?

Stress eating. I used to do a lot of it. I'd get upset, frustrated and angry, so I'd munch down on some not-so-good for me foods. But now, trying to focus on getting back to healthy, I am finding that I am having the opposite problem when I get stressed out....I stop eating. WTF? I was expecting to lose about 1 lb this week....I am down 3 lbs instead. It was an empty victory. I know it was because I had a terribly stressful week between work, school and some family stuff. I also had a lot of trouble dragging my butt to the gym at 4:30 in the morning. Which, I noticed, even after a few days of not going to the gym, I felt gross all over. I am hoping next week will be better. A lot of family worry/stress will be lifted once Monday is over and then just need to make it until the end of April and the semester from Hell will officially be over. I might actually be able to breath again and get back to a normal social life.

Overall, I am now down 14 lbs total. I am really starting to feel the difference on my body. Especially when I wear some of my work pants - I was called "droopy drawers" at work yesterday. Haha!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Week Five

I am officially down a total of 11 lbs now!!! It's a great feeling! It's nice to know, regardless of the stressful things that are going on in my life, there is something that I can actual take control of - my health and well being! With those taken care of, I am so much better at catching all of the curve balls life has been throwing my way lately. I think that if I was not in control of my health, like I was five weeks ago, I would have had a true break down. I sometimes wonder how I take on all that I do. I lay in bed at night, letting my mind run through the current day's events and laugh a little thinking "is this really my life?" But the next morning, while pushing myself on the bike, I clear my mind and don't allow myself any thoughts other than what I am doing right then. The feel of my muscles tightening in my thighs with each rotation of the pedals. The smells around me. The sound of music in my ears and the familiar feeling of sweat trickling down my face and neck. It's the perfect way to start each day with a clean slate, not a biased slate from the previous day.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Fourth Week

Holy crap! I can't believe I have been doing weight watchers and going to the gym for four weeks already!!! I had my weigh in this morning and am down another 2 lbs!!! Total of 9.5lbs!!! I am definitely noticing a difference in my overall size though....kind of wishing that I had measured myself in the beginning because I know I have lost in that aspect. Maybe this weekend I'll take measurements and just go from there.

I am so proud of myself! I have no idea how I am making all of this happen though! Working full time, going to school physically three nights a week and heading to the gym at's a mad house!!!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Three weeks down, only about eight million more to go!

At the end of my third week, I am down another 1.5 lbs! Making a total of 7.5 lbs off! I am working my ass off, literally. Eating right and working out daily, making the difference. I am sleeping better and am slightly less stressed, even though there is still work, school and family medical problems. At least when I am working out regularly, I feel like I can manage my stress with that type of outlet. We'll see how I feel in a few weeks, haha!I have been noticing lately though, I find myself wishing that I could skip forward about two months. That way, I would be down at least 20 lbs and be much more physically fit. It's really starting to frustrate me that I'm thinking this way. It's so not fair to myself. I need to snap myself back to reality and realize that I actually have to work towards that.

I am a work in progress. I just need to keep telling myself that over and over again because of my feelings of wanting instant gratification. Regardless of the thoughts I occasionally have, I am going to continue the way I am! Eating right, working out and staying positive - about everything.